Hello From The Other Side

Maybe you’re wondering what I’ve been up to since I last wrote, nearly a year ago. Maybe I flatter myself.

A few weeks ago I passed the one year anniversary of my orthopedic surgery. My thoughts immediately went to the expectations and goals I set for myself at the time, and my reasons for getting the rod in the first place. In spite of the trepidation of going under the drill, a year ago I was filled with excitement and hope for my future. I envisioned races of all kinds: sprint triathlons, trail runs, 5ks… even half marathons. eight ballWith my indestructible leg, all signs pointed to “yes.”

I have the nonrefundable race registration receipts to prove it.

Reality had something a little different in store for me. Post-op, I was less bionic woman than tin man, with a dash of cowardly lion thrown in for good measure.

The first setback I encountered was the limp. For weeks, months…. I limped and limped and limped. Limping was not on the Pre-Op Vision Board.

The second setback was the stiffness in my hips and lower body. My range of motion on the left side of my body was… Negligible? I had taken for granted the high degree of flexibility I previously enjoyed. Rods and bolts made of titanium tend to inhibit flexibility in the joints and limbs. One would think I might have prepared myself for this inevitability, but no; I was sublimely unaware of just how difficult it would be to manage the day-to-day stiffness and soreness I encountered, and still encounter (albeit less and less).

The third setback (and this was a real kicker, guys) was throwing out my back in February. I know there must be a better medical term for what happened to me, but I don’t know what it is. I just know that I had been doing a fair amount of working out when one day I woke up, bent over to pick something up off the floor, and felt a sharp pain in my lower back. The pain did not go away quickly. No, it took many days – several weeks, really – for the pain to fully subside.

Fourth setback: rapid and massive weight gain. I was easily twenty pounds overweight on the one year anniversary of my surgery. Boy, do I hate to admit this. The shame! It’s true, I am ashamed of myself for gaining so much weight in a year. And I am ashamed of myself for admitting I am ashamed! I know I am supposed to “love my body” and “be kind to myself” but to be completely frank with you, it was not so long ago that I enjoyed two consecutive years as a LEAN, MEAN, MUTHA-EFFING-RUNNING-MACHINE; with a body that, if I am being honest here (and I am), I felt ENTITLED TO. I WORKED FOR IT, GODDAMNIT.

And it went away. Poof. In an instant.

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Netflix took it away as I sat on the couch. Sauvignon Blanc took it away. Rang Bistro Chicken Korma took it away, among other grievous wrong-doers. They are all jointly and severally liable to this bitch right here, and I am coming to collect! That’s right; I see you Oyster Bay Sauvignon, cowering on the bottom shelf of the refrigerator… You’ve written a check you can’t cash. The needle on the bathroom scale, hovering between 140 and 150… YOUR days are numbered too!  Banished! You are all banished!

Anyways…

In addition to litigating my FAT ASS…. The nice weather is finally here, I’ve joined a gym called 0600 Conditioning, and I’m on a strict diet. This blog is going to help me stay accountable to myself again, as it’s done in the past. There are races in my future, to be sure, but right now I am focused on building strength and losing weight. I’d like to get some of that dynamic muscle movement back, as well.

See? New goals replace the old goals and the cycle continues. What is that famous quote? “The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward… 8 minute splits.” Isn’t that how it goes?

What’s everyone been up to?

Still finding time to run as civilization crumbles, or burning calories building a bunker? 

You tell me!

9 thoughts on “Hello From The Other Side

  1. Great to read this—I love your honest writing, and I love your approach to jumping back into running after a tough year of recovery, and managing the disappointment of not being totally bionic after all. It’s got to be about beating yesterday, enjoying the process and getting stuck into where you are right now, not being a slave to where you were a year ago, or two years ago. Running is all about freedom! Go go go!

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  2. I, too, love your writing style — you write as though you’re chatting with me directly! I can relate to it all: the surgery (just knee/torn meniscus in my case), the weight gain/fat ass, the determination to sign up for nonrefundable races (yep, I have a 10K in a month, about 10 weeks after surgery because I’m stubborn like that!). Although I didn’t join a gym, I did buy a mountain bike and bust out the punching bag & gloves, realizing that cross-training is going to have to be a way of life. Running is my love, but if I don’t respect it it will become my nemesis.

    Keep writing! It keeps me accountable!

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    1. Hi Roxanne, thank you for the support! Always nice to connect with a sister in the trenches, trying to get her mojo back! I dated a mountain biker and tried to get into it, for the sake of the relationship (he was really into it) but it never took, the mtn biking or the relationship. Boxing is such an awesome stress reliever and work out. There’s more to staying fit than running, right? Cheers!

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    1. Hi Undine, I have fibrous dysplasia and a cyst in my femur. It was a benign cyst, so I could have lived with it, but I was limited in what I could do athletically and I got stress fractures from overuse. Because it was not in my joint the recovery was easier than people that get hip and knee replacements – that’s what I was told, anyway! Did you have to get any hardware in your hip? the hip is such a difficult and painful area to experience an injury. I hope you heal well and fast! Be kind to your self and have patience. You’ll get through it! Thanks for writing!

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      1. Ah, ok. Makes sense.

        This is my third hip surgery recovery (first two were for FAI and labral tears) and yes, I had 3 large screws put in to hold the femoral head and femoral neck together while the fracture is healing.
        I spent five months on crutches and am now in the process of learning how to walk again. Including trying to get rid of the limp.

        Thanks for replying.

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